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Thursday, July 31, 2014

Treatment Plan | The Secret: Understanding The Law of Attraction

The Wellness Wheel must be balanced in order for one's health to be balanced.  The greatest way to achieve balance in your life is to follow the secret of the law of attraction. I speak a lot about the law of attraction, but it's a difficult concept to really explain, so please listen to Bob Proctor explain it better than I can from the movie entitled The Secret.

You can watch the full version on Netflix.

Last year I was at a crossroads in my life. I didn't know what to do. My career was going well, but my love life was lacking. I applied the law of attraction and I attracted my partner. While in the middle of it I remember him turning to me and saying, "You are a powerful witch. You can make your thoughts happen."

I did make my thoughts happen. I applied the law of attraction. I listened to my feelings. They told me what I needed to do. Every time I started feeling sorry for myself, I believed that everything would work out according to destiny. I gave up control. I celebrated all the good things in my life and I just patiently waited. 

I began to believe in myself and my abilities. The belief is what really counts. If you're worried or in fear then that is what you will attract, but if you are happy and you believe in what you're doing and you create a beautiful feeling to go along with what you want, then anything can be achievable.

My health is not better yet. Part of the reason is that I don't believe it and that is what is holding me back from healing myself. The universe is responding to my feelings, my vibrations and that's what manifests. 

If I can learn to shift my awareness and believe I will get well, then that will happen. Like I said, it isn't an easy concept, but I KNOW that it works.

Think of something beautiful. Dwell on the thought. You'll start to feel better and you will begin to attract love and goodness in your life!

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Wellness Journal | Painful Storm

I'm documenting everything on a more regular basis so that I can keep up with my progress and so that I can show this to my doctors. I may not do this every day, but I'm going to do it as often as I can. So, here goes another Guinea Pig experiment!

July 23, 2014

Pain Level: 6 out of 10
What I did today: went to Summer Fun Water Park in Belton, TX with Bill and the girls. Lexi is 10 and Mira is 7.
Symptoms: Dizziness is better than yesterday. Yesterday I barely moved and I was dizzy and felt faint. I fell twice. Pain in left and right arm. Can't lift much in either arm.
Marijuana consumption: smoked 1 bong morning, 1 bong noon and 1 bong night.
Private life: Bill is going to ask me to marry him! We are moving to Colorado and we've started announcing it already. We're making plans to move to CO on March 1. We will be married before we move. Susan and Mira don't know yet. We are waiting to make the announcement until after Bill talks to Sue.

July 23, 2014

Pain Level: 8 out of 10
What I did today: Drove to Austin today for Mira's eye doctor appointment at 9:15a. Drove to kipp for back to school registration. Drove home at 4:15. While driving I almost knodded off as I got to Florence, 40 minutes into my trip. I swerved and jerked the car straighter. I gasped and sobbed, but quickly shook it off.
Private life: I announced on fb today that we're moving to Colorado. It makes me sad that I have to leave my girls, but it's not for forever.
Symptoms: Severe cramping in left arm and hand. I kept it tight to my body today in the hour long drives and around Daryl and strangers. Now it's difficult to get it to stop moving, but my hand stays in the position of Pics 7.23.14. Hard to concentrate. Tired. consumption: smoked 1 bong morning, 2 pinch hitter 11:00am, 2 pinch hitter 4:10pm, 4 bongs between 5-7:30p.
Mental: I'm trying to stay positive and remember that I need to live in the moment with the intent that Colorado is my goal. Bill is my future, but I won't have a future if I don't go to CO for cannabis oil.

I worried that I couldn't self diagnose myself, but I have nothing to fear. I'm going to keep my appointment with dr. Varga to let her know my concerns. My concerns ARE valid and so are my thoughts.

Then I remembered that I'm not in control and hurrying my life along is not natural. It needs to evolve naturally. 

July 26, 2014

Pain Level: 6 out of 10
What I did the past three days: I was in SEVERE PAIN and I was baked the entire time from a road trip alone to Austin. Bill and I have discussed it and we agreed that I can't make the trip alone again.
Symptoms: very tired. No motivation. Left arm, hand and shoulder in pain.

Private life: I'm starting to lose my positivity. I don't believe Bill and I are getting married and I don't believe that cannabis will cure me and I am very, very sad and pissed off as fuck that I have to move to CO and leave everything I've ever worked for AND MY CHILDREN. (See Pic 7.26.14)

Marijuana consumption: 1 bong, 3 cups of day old stem tea

Mental: see private life

July 27, 2014

July 28, 2014

July 29, 2014
Pain Level: 7 out of 10
What I did today: ate breakfast at MeƱos, hung out at home, Facebook, looked up stuff on Pinterest, more energy today so cleaned dishes and kitchen sink, counters and floor, washed my lingerie.

Symptoms: cramping in hand, wrist, and periodic spasms in left shoulder. Body seems to dance a lot more than usual, even in front of strangers. Can't lay my hand flat, wrist is arched.
Private life: 

Marijuana consumption: 3-4 bong hits throughout day. Very lite consumption for me. Did a few vape hits, too.

Mental: I'm very emotional still and I'm being negative toward myself. It seems like I'm punishing myself for something....but I'm unaware of what that is...

Friday, July 25, 2014

Recipe | Cannabis Stem Tea

Cannabis Stem Tea is perfect for easing anxiety more effectively than smoking and it's delicious, too!  Save all your stems in an airtight glass jar. This may take months to accumulate enough to make tea. 

Boil water to a rolling boil in a small pot. Add the stems. Turn off the heat and put in a lid. Let steep for 5-10 min. In a teacup add 1/2 cinnamon stick, raw local honey and vanilla hemp milk to taste. This stuff is addictive only because it tastes so damn good!! :)

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Research | Self Diagnosis of Parkinson's Disease

I remember as a Bipolar patient that I was never supposed to question my doctors. Society thinks that doctors know everything simply because they attend college for eight years. Most people think that doctors have their patient's best interests at heart and some do, but most are more concerned with the bottom dollar than the patient.

My diagnosis has evolved over the years. It's not an easy thing to be a bipolar patient and even harder to be a misdiagnosed one. The drugs that they put you on dope you up more than illegal drugs and they pollute your liver, kidneys and brain like any other. I will go so far as to venture to say that antispychotics, antidepressants, and benzos are the kind of drugs that make you crazier than you were to begin with.

But, I digress. I want to share with you my most recent findings that suggest that what I'm suffering from was caused by a combination of GMOs and pharmaceuticals. Western medicine has given me the diagnosis of Tardive Dyskinesia, but I'm discovering that Parkinson's Disease is my true diagnosis. I'm self diagnosing myself. I'm aware that many people will think I'm crazy (what's new?!), but I say that I'm crazy like a fox. I'm not being a complacent patient anymore. I'm doing the research, standing up for what I believe in and I'm sticking to it!

Over the last six months my disease has progressed tremendously. I've gone from merely having cramping and pain (rigidity) in my left hand and arm to cramping and pain in the left shoulder and neck to cramping and pain in my right hand, arm, neck and shoulder. Since October I've developed severe dizziness from standing up (I've learned to stand up slowly, but it doesn't matter) that makes me feel faint and I've fallen a few times. Since January I've noticed a steady decline in my thought process and I find myself unable to finish my thoughts that are voiced aloud in conversation.

After researching pharmaceutical options (only two drugs for Parkinson's and one is an antipsychotic. We all know how I feel about those!) I have concluded that cannabis oil is essential for the future of my health.

Here are my educated reasons for my self diagnosis of Parkinson's:

1. I was born in Minot, North Dakota in 1974. In 1970, rapeseed began to be mass-produced in that region. Interestingly enough thereare more North Dakotans that have Parkinson's than any other place in theUnited States. The common herbicide used during that time was 2, 4-D. For those not in the know, 2, 4-D was an ingredient in Agent Orange that was used in the Vietnam war. The high prevalence of the herbicide led the Center for Food Safety's report detailing how the herbicide is the reason for the greater numbers of Parkinson's in the area. Pesticides and GMOs are a leading cause of Parkinson's. I read an article that suggests that the herbicide was over everything in the Red River Basin area and babies crawling on the ground were highly susceptible to poisoning from it.

2. At every appointment my neurologist, which specializes in Parkinson’s, has questioned why my illness is progressing when typical Tardive Dyskinesia patients don’t usually progress. In fact, they are usually all better within a couple of years after taking antipsychotics. I’ve been off antipsychotics since 2011. I’ve done some research that suggests that the antipsychotics just kicked in my Parkinson’s earlier than usual.

3. My body presents the following arguments: I have a tremor, rigidity and cramping throughout my body, andorthostatic hypotension which leads to postural instability (my blood pressure gets low and I faint or fall) with dyskinesia movements (looks like my left arm is dancing, uncontrollable), and I'm beginning to experience cognitive dysfunction (I can’t finish my thoughts that are said aloud in conversation). I have three out of the four defining characteristics that are necessary to diagnose Parkinson's.

4. Unfortunately, western medicine dictates that Bradykinesia, the last characteristic, must be present to diagnose Parkinson's. Many patients who are eventually diagnosed with Parkinson's suffer from all of the symptoms for years, maybe decades  before they actually get to the slow and jerky movements. Most Parkinson's patients are diagnosed at the median age of 67.

After researching pharmaceutical options (only two drugs for Parkinson's and one is an antipsychotic. We all know how I feel about those!) I have concluded that cannabis oil is essential for the future of my health. I'm taking steps to attain the substance legally since it is not legal in the state that I live in.

I have to move to Colorado and I'm partially unhappy about my decision. I have children here and it will tear me apart to leave them, but it is my only viable hope to living a pain free life.

I have an appointment scheduled in a couple of weeks to see my specialist, Dr. Varga, but I'm unsure if she can do anything to help me. She is one of the best neurologists in Austin. She's good at being a western medical doctor, but I'm not sure if she's up to date on cannabis research and that's the kind of neurologist I need.

I may not have a medical diagnosis of Parkinson's Disease, but I know what's going on with my body. I scorn all western medicine anyway. It doesn't matter what they say. It only matters if the cannabis oil works for my symptoms and it does and that's A-FUCKING-OKAY for me!

Monday, July 21, 2014

Recipe | Sinusitis Prevention Tea

I get requests from people all the time about things I do to stay healthy, but I've never saved it before...Here ya go, Tia!!! This recipe was written down just for you!!! (And for you, dear reader!)

Hi, Tia,

Okay, I'm finally sitting down to write you this recipe. Whew! I've been a little under the weather, but not with sinusitis! LOL! I haven't been sick in SEVEN months since I started this regimen and you KNOW that's huge for me (I had chronic sinusitis every month and a half for five whole years)!

Sinusitis Prevention  Tea

WARNING: This tea is highly addictive and picky children absolutely LOVE it!

I stopped taking antibiotics and started drinking this tea. I take 10 sprays when my throat starts feeling sore, I drink my Sinusitis Tea twice a day, and it keeps the bugs at bay!

Boiling water
Coffee sized mug
1 cinnamon stick (in bulk from Natural Grocer)
1 Tea Infuser spoon (see pic attached) full of Marshmallow Root (Spoon and root in bulk from Natural Grocer)
Spoonful or two of local, raw honey (I like Good Flow from HEB)
10 drops of GSE (Grapefruit Seed Extract is $14 at Natural Grocer)
1 whole dropper full of Echinacea (liquid at Natural Grocer)
1/4 tsp. Slippery Elm Bark Powder (in bulk from Natural Grocer)
Vanilla Hemp Milk to taste

Place cinnamon stick, marshmallow root, GSE, echinacea and spoon with honey in the bottom of a coffee mug. Boil water until teapot whistles then pour it into 3/4 of the cup. Stir with both spoons. Add the slippery elm. Whip (as if whipping eggs) using both spoons. The slippery elm can be tricky to get to dissolve and I've found that the whipping motion really helps. Add vanilla milk to the top.

Once you've bought all these ingredients you'll have enough for a 3 month supply. I suggest putting the herbs in glass jars to store. The Echinacea will go faster than the GSE. The GSE will last you a year. I also recommend that you buy some colloidal silver which will run you $14 for a small bottle or $32 for a large bottle (spray is unnecessary, but I like the spray). 

Love, CC

Recipe Photos:

Tea Infuser Spoon

Marshmallow Root

Slippery Elm Bark Powder

GSE (Grapefruit Seed Extract)

Colloidal Silver

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Wellness Journal | Storm

patient note

very stressed yesterday. i woke this morning full of pain. my instant thought was that today i was going to experience a storm attack which normally lasts from three to nine days. i had a negative thought, "oh, gawd, here comes another week of pain" and it made me panic. i recognized it and immediately counteracted it with positive thoughts of "i will be fine" and "if it's meant to be who am i to stop it?". it is an effective bandaid. still sore and in pain, but my mental ability to deal with it is ever so much better! Morning sex didn't hurt either! ;)


pain goes from neck down to mid back over to shoulder into the ball socket and down into my elbow and into my cramped, c shaped fingers
my ring finger, middle finger, index finger and thumb are numb and in the claw position during the day
middle finger is getting worse in numbness and i can barely feel it during a storm.
dizziness when i'm just moving from one place to another on the bed and it freaks me out
mild headaches continue (probably allergies)
stress when i can't think a thought all the way through without forgetting midway and this bothers me when i have to run meetings

current treatment

once weekly meditation (i know i've been slacking!)
no pharmaceuticals
no alcohol
marijuana as pain and anxiety control
daily acv
organic diet
restricted intake of restaurant food

treatment needed

daily meditation

daily finger exercises
daily mirror exercises
daily 1 lb. weight arm exercises
three times weekly meditative yoga

diet/holistic changes needed

15 day detox
three times daily acv
candida cleanse