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Saturday, August 30, 2014

Wellness Journal | Symptom: Brain Fog Attention Span

Pain Level: 
3 out of 10. (10 being the worst).

Symptoms: 
10:13 pm: right arm and hand and shoulder and neck hurt quite a bit. Left wrist and arm feel much better. Better enough to make nachos with homemade chips for dinner.





What's going on in my life today:
My girls are home and fighting again. It's hard to be a good mom and be attentive when feeling like in a brain fog. Not sure if it's cannabis healing my brain or if it's the lack of dopamine sucking out my life by each teeny drop of dopamine.

Happiness Level:
5 out of 10. (10 being the worst.)

Stress Level: 
3 out of 10. (10 being the worst.)

Cannabis oil consumption: 

Duration of dose: 
3 hour high which seems about the average right now.

Pain level after dosing: 
6.5 out of 10, but very sleepy. Putting on some tiger balm and hitting the sack.

Friday, August 29, 2014

Wellness Journal | Symptom: Depression & Memory Problems



Pain Level: 
8 out of 10. (10 being the worst).

Symptoms: 
2:12 am: can't sleep, head hurts, anxious, can't feel anything on my skin. I don't want to wake Bill and worry him. :(

Progression notes: 
I'm having bouts of depression at least once a week. Just incredible sadness and grief over what I'm going through. This morning I cried for hours.

New therapies: 
got my second supply of oil today from my very sweet benefactor! I get free oil in exchange for documenting my progress! Not too shabby!!!
:D

What's going on in my life today: 
This week Angel had to go to the emergency room because she thought she was having a stroke or a seizure. She told me on Monday morning right after I had just taken a large dose (something was going on that day with me and my pain I think), so I absolutely forgot. I didn't even tell Bill. Looking back I remember bits and pieces of the conversation and I think I thought that it wasn't a seizure at the time so dismissed it figuring I would explain later or something. She sent me a pic of her hand. I noticed it looks similar to mine during the worst if the storm. I gave her a few tips on hand massage and we agreed to do weekly skypes to keep up with our progress.

Mental: 
Started out shaky. I was crying because I was in terrible pain and because I was scared for both me and my sister. I know it's not my burden and it's my intention to learn how to release it. If I don't it will poison my relationship with my sister and I've taken an oath to avoid all poisons! ;)

Happiness Level: 
6 out of 10. (10 being the best.)

Stress Level: 
7 out of 10. (10 being worst.)

Bedtime and Sleep issues: 
hard time sleeping due to pain.

Marijuana consumption: 
Smoked a couple of times, but smoking out of a pipe here and there I can do without coughing so hard I want to vomit. The oil is so much better!

A Sample Cannabis Oil Dosage:

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Wellness Journal | Cannabis Oil Concentrate Short Study Day 5







Pain level is 4 out of 10. 
Cramping in left arm. 
Didn't take my 11am dose until 2pm bc I was having a hard time staying awake.

2:16 PM
Tired. Left hand and forearm cramping. Very tired, hard time focusing. Can't watch hour long tv programs.

Monday, August 18, 2014

Wellness Journal | Cannabis Oil Concentrate Short Study Day 4


Pain level: 
4 out of 10. (10 = worst.)

Woke up at 5:30, took first dose, no high but fell back asleep. Woke, smoked. Ate another dose at 8am bc I was in pain. Don't feel high, but don't feel much pain. Still a little pain in right and left biceps. My wrist is nice and straight! I don't think my dose is right (according to my instructions) so I'm going to take another one. The dose should be large enough that you feel drugged or high, but not so much that you're nauseous.

9:26am:

9:48 am:
Feel tired and a little drugged.

2:53 pm: 
Took a bigger dose bc the last had little effect. Big tremors and cramps.

5:36 pm: 
THE RIGHT DOSE FOR THE NEXT 24 HRS!! 


I just woke up from a nap. Wow, that was an intense 2 hour high. Tired. Guess that's the right dose according to my instructions.

Symptoms: 
Before I fell asleep I was having more tremors and cramps. Now there's a small persistent tic or two, but the tremors feel better. Cramping still happening. I told Bill that I think I'm about to have a storm or, perhaps, I'm already in one because there were many movement and tremors when not medicated.

Pain level:
3 out of 10 (10 = worst).





7:19 pm:
I feel like this is a storm. My right side is cramping, but it's like a shadow of the usual storm. It's masked, I can feel the rigidity and the tremors, but they aren't as present. and it hurts less. But it's it's usual oh gawd I'm losing control of my body again. I have absolutely no control. A moment of panic. The very minute I remember... Welcome to the eye of the storm...Btw: cognitive brain fog...

9:30 pm:
Before dosing I'm tired, still a bit high and happy.
Oil is not too shabby with chocolate either!

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Wellness Journal | Cannabis Oil Concentrate Short Study Day 3

Continued from Wellness Journal: Day 1 and Day 2 of Cannabis Oil

Pain Level: 
6 out of 10 (10 being the worst).

Symptoms:
Wrist is still really straight. Less tremors and cramping. Right neck, shoulder and arm in pain.






New therapies: 
2nd full day on cannabis oil. I feel drugged, but mellow. Dosage size: rice grain. Sandwiched in between two pieces of Baker's chocolate the oil doesn't taste too shabby. Shotguns help periodically during today as an anxiety reliever.


What's going on in my life today: 
Girls are here. Lazy Sunday morning!  



Happiness Level: 
8 out of 10 (10 being the best).

Stress Level: 
2 out of 10 (10 being worst).

Bedtime and Sleep issues: 
Slept like a baby from midnight until 6:30 am! 

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Treatment Plan | The Secret: Belief + Intent + Action = A Healthy Me!


I went for my very last doctor appointment this week and it made me decide not to see another western medical doctor again. I've made this decision because I need to focus my energies elsewhere. My mental health needs them the most and I don't have time to have negative energy make waste of the progress I've made when it comes to how zen I've been feeling lately.

I've been doing a lot of research and I keep finding myself equating neurological disorders and mental illness. They seem so intertwined with one another. They are all deeply affected by chemicals and react so similarly with medical marijuana. I've been exploring organic food and marijuana as treatment plans for my neurological disorder, but I believe there's something more...something that all of us should have as a wellness treatment.

One realm I keep coming back to in my research is to think positive. In fact, I believe that there are the parts of the brain that have yet to be explored and there is much to understand between how our food and medicine affects the brain and how positive energy affects it as well. Positive thinking, aka the placebo effect, is pretty intriguing. Is it really mind over matter? And what does that have to do with the law of attraction and my wellness plan?

I believe that there's an area of the brain that is unexplored that when activated regenerates cells in the human body. 


There is much scientific evidence that says that placebos are real. If people think that a medicine cures them that it will. Think about what that says about the power of the mind. Think about what this could mean for all neurological patients. If I'm correct, this could be another avenue towards wellness.

The law of attraction says that in order to have something wonderful happen in your life that you have to believe it into existence. If you believe and you know your intent, then it will be so. But it's not enough to have belief and intent. You must also have time to visualize it happening. Visualize it and it will be so. Take five minutes out of the day to remember a time when you felt the most loved. Remember how it felt, what it smelled like, the colors. Now feel that. Use it to combine with the intent that you want. Continue this practice daily. Remember not to dwell and worry about what you want. At the end of your visualization give it up to the universe. Don't think upon it further. The more you think and think about it, the more negativity you put into it. The best thing to do is live in the moment and let go of all control and all responsibility for the outcome.

This philosophy will require some thinking and retraining of the brain. I have to learn to let go of control and let go of my daydreaming. I have to visualize what I want and what I want is wellness. I need to visualize myself as healthy. What would that look like? What would I do if I weren't confined to my home all day? What would I accomplish? And do I want that? What is it that I want? Do I want to be healthy?

If the answer is yes, then I visualize how beautiful, happy and healthy I am. Notice the language. I did not say that I would hope that I was beautiful, happy and healthy. I said that I already was. Assume that it is already the way you envision it.

I believe the secret is a simple equation. Belief + Intent + Action = Healthy Me. At least that's my new treatment philosophy!

Wellness Journal | Cannabis Oil Concentrate Short Study Day 2

I took the first dose last night and feel fine. I felt it almost immediately. My spouse says that's not possible, but it's how I felt. Within an hour I was pretty woozy. This morning I woke to less pain and my hand and wrist look somewhat normal!!!



10:40 AM 
Pain level: 6 out of 10.
Time for my next dose at 11am, then again at 4pm and 10pm.

Didn't take a dose at 11 AM so it took some more at 1 PM. I'm kind of getting used to the taste.



1pm Cannabis Oil Dose

8/24/14 Notes: 
I was so super doped up the rest of the day that I didn't do much! I was woozy and tired. I kept falling asleep whenever I sat still for just a moment. It was kind of surreal how much it made me tired. I was still feeling pain, but nothing like before.

The dreams were impressive. I've never had such lucid dreams before. I also remember waking up in a panic, like a panic attack, thinking that something was wrong. Realizing nothing was wrong, I drifted back into sleep. Sleep was really difficult the first night mostly because my sleeping was so lucid. I knew what was going on around me and during my dreams. It was very odd and I had a difficult time adjusting to the feeling.

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Help with the cramping and the tremors but doesn't get rid of them.

Going to get a scale today and some gelatin capsules.