I arched my back, pushed my neck into the mattress and lifted my hips. I felt the tremor start at the base of my spine and travel up to my neck. I gasped from anxiety then struggled to breathe. I felt my temples swell and bright lights pulse while my eyes were closed. It was hard to hear Bill ask if I was alright. I tried to answer, but I couldn't get any words out. My body convulsed and it drew into itself in the fetal position. It was scary to say the least.
I gasped for air and started to get panicked. Something told me to calm down, so I let go of my control. I finally was able to tell him, "No," and my body relaxed.
I cried for a bit afterwards. This is so scary. I'm losing control of both my brain and my body at the same time.